To whom it may concern:

Not just mine, but all my sisters’. When we were little, we used to hang out with my mother all the time. I went to the zoo, two-ish weeks ago for the SciOly Regionals. Walking around, looking at the animals, I remembered doing this with her and my sisters. We went to the zoo so often, we had a membership. I felt bad. I felt bad that I had to grow up.

Yes, my mom is annoying and whiny and bitches a lot, but she is my mother after all. I spent my childhood with her. And I can tell she feels lonely now and I feel so bad. I feel bad that I can’t connect with her anymore. That if I try to talk to her, she says something that I can’t stand.

When I was little, my sisters and I used to play hide-n-seek with my mom, watch old movies all the time, go to the zoo, look at model houses just for fun… I feel like a horrible daughter when my mom rents a movie from the library to watch together and we don’t watch it… Either because my sister and I are busy or we need to sleep or something. Every time I hear her voice in my head saying, “You guys can watch it and I can go to sleep…oh, okay…goodnight,” it makes me want to cry that I’m making my mother so lonely. I remember we used to watch movies and she’d fall asleep right at the beginning. I watched some of my favorite movies with my mother and sisters.

It’s so hard seeing my mother try to connect with us, but fail. I’m crying right now thinking about it. I feel bad. So bad. I love her so much and I feel like all I’m doing is pushing her away.

Too bad I’m gonna talk about multiple.

I always say my favorite show is Gossip Girl, but I haven’t watched that in ages and I’m angry that Blair and Chuck aren’t together anymore. Back in eighth grade, when I had a TV in my room, I used to just watch TV all night, no matter what was on. Even if I was constantly flipping channels trying to figure out something to watch. One day I flipped through channels and stopped on the CW and this show was on. I was like, ohhh. And I stopped and watched the episode. It was wildly inappropriate, especially for a sheltered child like I was. But that’s partly the reason I watched it; it made me feel like a rebel. ;D So I got hooked on the show some winter day in the eighth grade. I forgot to watch like almost the entire season and almost completely forgot about the show. Summer came around and I remembered it, and found all the episodes online. Got all caught up, you know. The next season, I watched mostly. But my parents couldn’t be around or else I’d be horribly yelled at. Again, internet came to my rescue. The same happened with the third season. And I’ve only watched the first half of the current season. I liked the show more in beginning and I just hate how Blair and Chuck won’t date. It depresses me. I use wikipedia to get my episode info, though. hahah.

Now, I’m gonna talk about Avatar. AKA Greatest Show Ever Until It Was Ruined By that Horrid Movie. Yup, I love that show so much. I’ve watched every single episode. To think that when the show first started I thought it was gonna be the dumbest thing ever. Oh, was I wrong. I’m just throwing this out there, but Zuko is my favorite and Katara is a dumb bitch. bahahaha. I always hate the main girl characters. Series finale = saddest day ever. I saw that a movie was coming out and was sort of excited until I saw that it was gonna be a total fail. I ended up never seeing it. And now they’re making that dumb spin-off. There should’ve been a spin-off for Zuko’s mom; I would’ve been plenty okay with that. BUT NO. GAH.

Okay, two shows is fine, I suppose.

I’m just gonna go ahead and say that I dislike Coach.

I don’t understand why so many people like it. There are very few select things that I find pretty from Coach. But of course, Bellevue has to love the things I hate. Bellevue is like the epitome of the anti-me. It makes me laugh.

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Just look at that. Why do girls do that? They don’t do it when they are with girls but when a guy is around, they deliberately leave cream on their lips. Then pretend that they are unaware of it.

That’s messy. Come here.

LOL, GD’s face in the last picture.

I need to shower. I need to do homework. I need to sleep.

I’m gonna need coffee tomorrow.

michellephamished:

Because I am not watching the Oscars and Tumblr is a minute-ly reminder of that.

jk, no tears. But still. I’M SO OUT OF THE LOOP.

NVM. Thank the lord for livestream on the internet.

Because I am not watching the Oscars and Tumblr is a minute-ly reminder of that.

jk, no tears. But still. I’M SO OUT OF THE LOOP.

If anything, I should be that. She’s over 50 years old, she shouldn’t be acting like a child.

She will never accept that she’s wrong. Never. I tried telling her that she was wrong, explaining it. But no. She almost hit me because I did.

Oh, and apparently questions shouldn’t have answers that coincide with what the asker is looking for. That’s how this came to be. I asked her a question and she didn’t answer the right question. I ask her it again in a different form, still no. And so after much yelling, she tells that answers shouldn’t coincide with what the asker is looking for. I then told her that, “So when you ask me questions, I shouldn’t give you good answers?” She got mad, again. Obviously.

Whenever she gets angry, she tries to take away things that will make me feel punished, like she’s superior to me. We were eating dinner. Beforehand, I asked my parents if I could make the Oscars. They said yes and I turned it on. I hadn’t even watched more than five seconds because of my mother’s bickering. And because she can’t be wrong, she said that I don’t deserve to watch it and turns it off.

Good punishment, mother. Very good. Teaching me all sorts of lessons. Evidently, the greatest lesson is to treat my kids like shit when they’re trying to correct me.

And this gif I made earlier actually came in handy. Is my mother ever wrong? Of course, not! /sarcasm.